October 26, 2010

A song for every little broken heart

 It's 2am and this song I wrote a few years back is repeating in my head for some reason. So I am hopeful that once I write it down I will get back to sleep. I pray it touches your heart.

Child you are a mystery

(verse1)
In you there are songs unsung
Notes not yet played
A heart like a canvas where the painting is still to be formed
Wounds not yet healed
Hurts needing mended
And dreams, so many dreams still to come true

(chorus)
Child  you are a mystery waiting to be discovered
With a destiny desperate to be realized
A spirit free longing for release
In you a heart waiting to be really known

(verse 2)
In you fears that hold you tight
Grip you sore inside
There's a past that longs to be erased
Tears not yet cried
Prayers still unanswered
And a heartbeat that waits to be cherished

(chorus)
Child  you are a mystery waiting to be discovered
With a destiny desperate  to be realized
A spirit free longing for release
In you a heart waiting to be really known

 (Bridge)
A hand waiting to be held through pain and joy
A heart longing to be one in hope and dreams
Eyes that mirror whats really inside
A smile that gives a strength even in you weakness

(Chorus)
Child  you are a mystery waiting to be discovered
With a destiny desperate to be realized
A spirit free longing for release
In you a heart waiting to be really known



October 25, 2010

A dirty teddy bear and a one peso coin

What's the point of  having a blog?! Isn't it a bit self indulgent to think that people would even bother reading my thoughts and the ramblings of my heart? Well today I found a  good reason to continue.
This is Aira Mae. She watched as her father was shot in the head by a gang and killed. I remember Ron and I were working with some youth when it happened right outside the gate. The next day Aira stopped talking for almost 3 months. So much prayer went up for her and we watched as Jesus began to heal her little broken heart. Songs came first - then words- then smiles.

Today was her birthday. She arrived early to kids church to tell us.She held out a teddy bear. It was pretty grotty looking, but I knew it was so precious to her by the way she was holding it and the excitement on her face. She carried it with such care.

"its a gift for you big sister Joanna"

To realise how beautiful this is you need to know  what a birthday looks like for our kids here. Basically, its just a another day on the dump site. No gifts, no cake and no party. It's all about survival one day at a time.

Aira Mae was giving something that was precious to her to bless me. It could have been her only teddy. It was her birthday....she was meant  to get something, but instead she gave.


one peso coin- worth less than 1p


Sweaty bodies, kids everywhere and volunteers trying to find enough chairs to go around all the kids is the general scene right before  kids church. With 300 kids from the age of 1 and above it gets pretty chaotic at times! Today I was teaching the 7 year old group and had 60 in my class. As I was attempting to settle them a  boy pulled on my already dusty trousers and looked up at me with big brown eyes.

He reached out his dirty little hand to reveal a 1 peso coin.

" I want to give it"

In all of the busyness of settling the newer kids into the correct classroom he never got the chance to put his coin in the offering basket. I took him by the hand and we went to the main hall where the adults were already settling to listen to the preaching of the word. When we got near, this precious child walked to the front of the church, not put off at all that the room was filled with only grown ups. With a smile he gave his one peso and then came back and took my hand. Joy beamed from his wee face.

What made him do that?
Why didn't he just keep the coin?
Why did it mean so much to him?

Heart check for me!

These two children have lived in flood waters this week because of the typhoon. Their community infested with disease and covered by trash. They have eaten one meal a day or nothing at all everyday this week .But they both came and gave today. They lifted their hands and voices as we all sang together in Praise.They gave in worship....true worship.

These kids touched my heart today. They gave when it was hard. They gave when they didn't have to. They gave when they would not receive anything in return.


Usually I would forget these little treasure story's amidst the craziness of the day! But the Lord used them to speak to, encourage and challenge my heart. I'm thankful.What if I would have forgotten about these two little hero's today? I wonder how many lessons of Gods love I have missed by not writing them down?

I am convinced this is a good enough reason to blog!


"Assuredly , I say to you that this poor widow (*or child from Tondo) has put in more than all those who have given to the treasury; for they all put in out of abundance, but she out of her poverty put in all that she had....." Mark 12:43-44

*italics mine :)

October 23, 2010

Hmmmm, so where to start?

 So I used to write a lot. I wrote songs. I wrote poems. I wrote down pretty much everything. Since we began  full time  In Tondo I  haven't been writing nearly as much as before. Only recently have I felt a stirring up about this.

The thought of blogging came to me through a group of wonderful people we met within the last month.We were blessed to have an amazing team come to do short term mission with us. They are from the World Race.  It's a missions organisation where they will go to 11 countries in 11 months! Hubby and I were blessed to host 2 teams  for 3 weeks. They came to serve and help us in the ministry in whatever way was needed - even shoveling poo! (I'm not joking) I could mention lots of wonderful qualities about each one of them - I really could. They were such a blessing to us and the precious people we work with. But if I could sum them up in one sentence it would be.

They simply came to love.     

Here they are!
 Hubby and I started to read the blogs they were keeping of their everyday experiences ministering alongside us- about the community- the story's of the people-the physicality of the place. I felt like I was seeing the lives of the dumpsite and cemetary families for the first time. Then it hit me -we live this everyday!! Their writings gave me a fresh look at the children, youth and adults that we are honoured to serve. I really felt I was seeing with new eyes. My heart was touched as I read. I was moved, challenged and  encouraged. I cried. I laughed.


They got me thinking...... I never want to become used to being around this kind of poverty. I never want to see naked, starving children picking trash on a rat infested dumpsite and think it's"normal". I never want to walk among open tombs where toddlers play and get used to it. I pray for a soft heart. I pray for eyes that would shed tears over the pains of people. People who are "so loved" by our God.


So honestly I really haven't a clue where all this blogging is going or if I will ever do another one. It still feels a bit awkward!  But Isn't Jesus so lovely - the way He  would take a simple, seemingly insignificant thing (like blogging)  to speak  personally to the hearts of His children.

 So now what? Do I hit "publish post"? Hmmmm, won't that mean people can read my ramblings?  That's just a wee bit weird! So how are you supposed to end a blog anyway?


I guess a smiley is always appropriate! :)


Check out the World Race blogs:
http://www.theworldrace.org/?tab=blogs&pteamname=Peace Love Jesus